i am really overwhelmed by the response i’ve been getting for my new song. i’ve gotten 4 tweets saying they almost cried or did cry… i wouldn’t be writing this if i really wasn’t surprised!!! like for real i wrote it as kind of a joke because you know when you hook somebody up “accidentally” and you used to like them or whatever, you get frustrated and say things like “i never wanna be cupid again”… but i guess it become a song about just growing up and realizing the world’s bigger than you. yesterday my friend Kyle said my writing has really matured. and it took me a while to really grasp what that meant… every time i go through a certain situation… like “those lips” and “red roses” i almost feel stupid for writing certain things down because i feel like i should be hiding these feelings… i should be strong about whatever i’m dealing with. but i think part of being mature is actually being honest with yourself, and being real with yourself. and i do that through my songwriting now. which i’m so glad that a lot of you relate to. now regarding being real and honest in relationships when i was in high school and such…. i never would just straight up be real with the other person. i’d put on this front and then maybe eventually be honest and real with them you know? but now, especially being 23, you gotta just be real with the other person before anything becomes serious. they’ll accept you for who you are and if they don’t, then fuck it— there are way more girls/guys who will love you BECAUSE of who you are, not love you ANYWAY, you know? and that’s the everlasting search right there… to find someone who loves you BECAUSE of your flaws, and BECAUSE of your past, and BECAUSE of who you wanna be in the future.
sorry about the blabber,
ps thanks again for the love!